memories.

today i came home from work completely exhausted. my love is feeling sick lately, and it's bringing me down because i can't be there to take care of her. exhausted from work, i thought taking a bath would be the cure. as i laid in the bathtub listening to our favorite songs, so many memories came back to warm my heart. she is always on my mind, but i'm completely okay with that.

As i laid there, i just thought of these.

The first conversation.

The first meal.

The first time car ride.

The first attempt at understanding your beauty.

The first valentines.

The first time I ran my fingers across your skin.

The first date.

The first time I knew I wanted to love you.

The first time we went longboarding.

The first time we through frisbee.

The first swim.

The first time we went kayaking.

The first time it stormed and you needed me.

The first time you thought there would be a tornado.

The first time we played soccer together.

The first time I cooked for you.

Definitely, the first time you cooked for me.

The first concert we shared.

The first walk down Peachtree.

The first time I realized I could never understand your beauty.

The first time you called me masey.

The first popsicle we had together.

The first goodbye for summer.

The first time our lips locked.

The first time I told you I loved you.

The first time you told me you loved me.

The first time we danced.

The first sunset, soaked in sunlight.

The first fight.

The first time I realized that you were the only woman in the world that I would ever want to take through the journey of marriage. The one woman in the world that takes my burdens away, and judges me for my heart. The one woman who knows me like no one else. The one woman I can share anything with, and be completely honest about anything. The one woman who's face is abundantly doused in beauty. The one woman who took my heart, and proudly made it her own. This is love, and every other word that could possibly cover the feeling.

"The Night Will Go As Follows"

how true are these words.

this is just one of those songs.

that just chills you when its true.

In a romantic fashion
I will experiment with my fear right before her eyes
And every smile that's unveiled will be soaked
In my nervous charm

Then I'll say
"Is everything alright?
There's been a few things I've been meaning
To let go of tonight"
And she will say
"Everything's just fine
So you can put an end to your worrying mind"
And then our lips will collide

The August sky will then bare witness
To a brand new chapter with torn up pages
When the planets align, I can feel the gates opening
To my courage
As I proceed to run my fingers through her hair
And forget everyone who's jaded, 'cause they don't matter
And I don't care

In a confident fashion
I will admit my deepest and darkest to her
And every gaze across the table
Will send my unsuspecting body into shock

Then I'll say
"Would you like to go inside?
And forget the world and the rules
By which we are to abide"
And she will say
"There's nothing I want more"
As we step into the room, turn off the lights and close the door

The August sky will then bare witness
To a brand new chapter with torn up pages
When the planets align, I can feel the gates opening
To my courage
As I proceed to run my fingers through her hair
And forget everyone who's jaded, 'cause they don't matter
And I don't care
No, 'cause they don't matter
And I don't care

Brash and hopeful
That my luck will not perish tonight
When the overcast tries to kill me
It's your slow motion rain
That falls warm on my neck that keep me alive

Consider this song a testament
Of my devotion to your sacharrine scent
And to be completely honest
You're not like all the rest
You're not like all the rest

You're not like all the rest

Love is...

Patient.

Kind.

Selfless.

Radiant.

Merry.

Truth.

Fulfilling.

Devoted.

Priceless.

Genuine.

Hard.

Loyal.

Perfect.

Everything.

Forever.

I just wish people loved like this.

This is what I aspire to give to you.

I just can't believe some people do the exact opposite of this.

I just can't believe that a man would lay hands on a woman in violence.

I just can't believe that a man would cheat with another woman.

I just can't believe the will to betray.

Don't say you love her if you really don't.

"i will always despise you. betrayer,

where is your head. betrayer,

where is your heart. betrayer,

i will never be like you. betrayer,

i will always despise you."

I will give her everything you wouldn't.

I will give her everything you couldn't.

Everything you will never give anyone.

Chew on your conscious, betrayer.

Times

I know i need you
I need to love you
I love to see you, but its been so long
i long to feel you
i feel this need for you'
and i need to hear you
is that so wrong?

im there in the storm
my love i will keep you by my power alone
i dont care where you've fallen, where you have been
i'll never forsake you
my love never ends, it never ends.

Change if you want,

but don't you go and change for me
I will love you as you are
I didn't mean to make you want to leave

cookies and balloons.

I was at my house, with my mother when you said it. I had done nothing, but anticipated your arrival. I had done nothing, but make gifts for you for the past hour. there was just no rhyme or reason. my mind was completely focused on you; that is why it hurts. it's a new day, good morning sunshine; i'll just tuck yesterday away. i have nothing to actually complain about.

that kind of girl that makes the sun wish that it could shine.

that kind of girl that makes a man much better then he was before.

she's that kind of girl.

that kind of girl that lets music do her talking.

she dances while she's walking next to me.

The story we've been writing means everything to me. We could fight every day and I would love you just the same. You could not love me and I would love you just the same. I would love you just the same. I miss everything about you the moment you leave. The awkward way you walk, the way you brush your teeth, the way you never brush your hair unless I do it, the way you sing, the way you don't care what anyone thinks, the way you say my name, the way you look at me, the way you breathe, the way you carry yourself. I adore it all. I could not imagine having a different best friend. You are so perfect for me.

Stay with me, until I fall asleep.

i want to go home.

My war ships are lying off the coast of your delicate heart, and my aim is steady and true as it's been right from the start.

It will happen.

We'll have everything you want, exactly the way you want it. We can have the lights low at the reception, ceiling hung with lanterns about. Every bridesmaid can wear mustard yellow dresses, with white flowers. Every groomsman can wear chocolate brown, just the way you wanted it. We can wear TOMS, just the way you wanted it. We can have a tree with cards for everyone to sign. We can spend months just making the centerpieces to feel at home. We can have a scrapbook for everyone, just the way you wanted. We can dine on fine foods, and top it off with teramisu and cheesecake. We can share a dance under the spotlight, even if you think you can't dance, you can step on my feet and it will be okay. Then we'll run away for as long as you want in a olive green vw van.

We can do whatever you want.

I just know, you, you are what I want.

It Prevails.

All the times we have shared and all the memories I have,
brought me back to square one.
Now I'm running on empty.
Only you could pick me up,
without thinking twice,
you wrapped your arms around me.

When we find truth inside ourselves,
it's hard not to run away.
But we must capture and embrace.
It's how we truly live our lives.

We will be everything we have been dreaming of.

When I look in the mirror what I see,
is the only thing that I can be.
I come to you now, defenses down.
Defenseless now.
When you look at me I want to be,
everything you want to see.
I come to you now defenses down.
Defenseless now.

I love you.

There's a lot I have to be sorry for. I long just to be back with you. I didn't mean for any of these events to occur. I know you saw a glimpse of a ghost you never wanted to see again. I can't wait to see you again, and live the way we used to. I'm working on it, I just hope you're still happy. Life is cyclical, and we will return to where we started. There's no greater remorse I've ever felt. I realize there was no reason to the madness I dwelled in. A darker blood is flowing in me that I haven't felt in a long time surfaced to the skin.

I just hope you can find it in you to forgive me,

and love me just the same.

Just remember everything.

I'm not him, I'm me.

The me that wants to make you happy.

No matter what it takes.

In the woods, we return to reason and faith.

"The world thus exists to the soul to satisfy the desire of beauty. This element I call an ultimate end. No reason can be asked or given why the soul seeks beauty. Beauty, in its largest and profoundest sense, is one expression for the universe. God is the all-fair. Truth, and goodness, and beauty, are but faces for the same All.

There is no object so foul that intense light will not make beautiful."

-Emerson

So close, So alive.

You know that I will be next to you
When morning comes I'll still be true to you
"You say you'll never leave"
And I won't dear
"But how can I believe"
Just trust me please
"I can't explain how much I need you"
Don't say a word,
Your body will speak for you
"You can be the reason I'm alive"
You're already everything I've got
"Hold me close, keep me on my toes"